non-sense self talking about who must be forgotten

your smell I know well
your hair it’s not the same
but your voice still fucks up my brains
is it normal us now?
from lovers to strangers, then friends again
how can we be friends if you’ve caused me so much pain?
i don’t know what is wrong, but this proximity is weird
if the time heals everything, why am I writing this?
I try to put the past behind and smile
”we’re just good old friends” I say
but I’m kind of old school
and I don’t go to bed with all of them anyway
we’re drinking and smoking and laughing together but hey
in my mind i’m saying “i’ve seen you naked”
it disturbs me to be with you again and recognize your smell
it brings me feelings that I wanna forget and remember once in a while,
can we be friends and erase our past?
can we not be friends and erase it even though?